16 Days To Go!!!! (Are you serious?)

So, I've checked my friendly TheKnot.com page and it stated that I'm getting married in 16 days. 16 days!?!?! Where the hell did all that time go? That's what I want to know! I just found out today that I have an ear infection, and I have a quiz tonight on the diagnostic criteria for Dementia of the Alzheimer's Type, have a couple dozen chapters to read over the weekend to be ahead of my homework before the wedding... so that I can truly enjoy the corona's & fattening food on the sunny beach in Mexico!!! Then a bunch more wedding stuff to do.

Also, Rick & I are on a mad search for a house to rent, or another apartment to move to just after the wedding, so if you know of a place that rents for under $1000 a month but has a LARGE amount of space, & is available to move into at the end of November, please let us know! We're in the process of boxing up miscellaneous things and placing them in storage so it's one less thing to worry about after the wedding.

So let's just wrap up this past month - pulled my back for a week, then my new wii broke but my fiance fixed it, started packing to move but stopped (paying for storage that's never been used), broke my external hard drive (awaiting cost to repair), get an ear infection, haven't worked out in two weeks (although I want to lose 5 lbs in now 16 days) and haven't been eating well, and I have homework out the ying yang. How is it that I'm supposed to get excited about getting married when I have all of this looming over my head!?!?!

Life sucks at the moment.... remaining positive so that positive things start coming my way!!!!

Keeping the faith,
Bridget

Just Another Week

So two days ago I was going to mine and my fiance's dance lesson, and when I got out of the card my external hard drive fell out of my car onto the cement. There wasn't any real physical damage to it, outside of a corner being scrapped, but it wasn't working. I took it to Staples and they said to "just trying tapping in on the counter when I got home" - which I did, and it didn't work. Then I took it to the geek squad who ran a bunch of tests on it and said that it "didn't look good" and it had to be sent out to data recovery which could cost upwards of $2000 to fix. Generally, it would be around $1300. I can't believe that people can charge that much because people really want there data. Ridiculous.

That being said, with my wedding in three weeks I clearly don't have $1300 just lying around, but I had it sent off anyways because I had seven years of photographs, all of my music, every school project I ever did and saved to file, and all my resumes on it. It's such a loss!!! I hope that it'll run closer to $700 to fix. :(

Then I went to dance class that night and she told me that I had bad posture, which I've been trying to fix but it's actually really uncomfortable for me to walk the way she stated that I should. Hopefully my shoulders will start loosening up soon because I'm not sure I can keep this up for much longer! Our dance lesson went well though and I'm excited to try again next week to see what the finished product will look like!

Let's see, what else.... I haven't lost any weight since I last blogged, but I'm getting serious now because I really have no excuse since the wedding is getting so close. Outside of that, I'm mentally exhausted. Let me just say that I never want to get married again!!!!!

Finally,

My Current Mental State

So today we are 25 days from the wedding. Holy crap! That’s less than a month, which is totally insane to me because I feel like I have so much left to do… including lose 5 ½ pounds! Planning a wedding is so incredibly stressful on its own, let alone while taking 9 credit hours and working full-time, and trying to maintain a clean house!

There are so many other things going through my mind right now too, like where my fiancé and I are going to live in less than 3 months… and when we’re going to find time to pack up our place. How I’m going to get all of this homework done in advance so that I can enjoy my wedding and honeymoon. When I’m going to find time to eat right and exercise each day so that I can lose the 5 ½ pounds that I want to in time for the wedding/honeymoon?

I also am stressed out that I’ve chosen the wrong career again… hopefully not. But working towards gaining a PhD in this career is stressful, because you only have two years to prep yourself and they want you to have one published report in an academic journal, a couple presentations at seminars, and have taken the GRE & GRE special topic in that time period! Yeah, like that’s not a lot to add to someone’s plate who is also concerned about keeping a high GPA too.

It feels as though I have too many balls in the air and I’m a planner. I want to know what will happen over the next two years, and I have NO idea… and that scares the hell out of me! I’m just trying to keep the faith and know whatever happens is supposed to happen, but I’m still scared. I hate trusting the unknown. My only goal for now is to enjoy the wedding and take it all in…. and get my homework done… and lose 5 ½ pounds :) Wish me luck!