External Hard Drive Fiasco

So I just picked up my hard drive, that I dropped just over a month ago by accident, from Best Buy's Geek Squad. They said, even after I approved a $1,700 quote that they were "certain would be an excellent recovery", that my media disk was damaged and they couldn't recover anything. Really? Nothing?

So here I am re-grieving the loss of my music, photos, and school work. It's so hard to deal with! It's amazing.... like where do you begin to document all the work you've cherished enough to place it all on an external hard drive for safety? So I write a book about it? Or do I not give up hope yet and just wait for the day that they can recover data from a damaged media disk?

Stupid technology!

So, I'm Married!

Soooooo…. I now a married woman :) And to answer your question, no, it doesn't feel any different from before! I've been married for almost 2 1/2 weeks now - the honeymoon was amazing - but now I'm back into the swing of things, which means too much catch up on school work, writing thank you notes, and thinking once again about my future. This week has been kinda hard for me though. I asked my friends, “Can you absolutely love your personal life and absolutely hate everything else at the same time? Why do some people have to ruin your life because they hate their own and they just can? Can't everything just be as easy as they are at home?” Their responses - kill people with kindness and realize that not everyone has to like you…. I get to go home to people who love me and that’s all that matters. I hate that they’re true, so I’m trying to heed their advice.

What I’ve noticed about myself, now that the stress of wedding planning has subsided, is that I’m still interested in the same things that have always interested me – music, dancing, photography, cooking/entertaining, exercising, drawing, etc. When I take time to practice these things, I’m in a completely different state of mind. But I wonder why I can never take time to do these things? I hate that my life seems to take over and all I find myself having time to do is work, go to school, sleep, eat poorly, and clean. So my new thing is to FIND TIME FOR MYSELF, and enjoy my life while I’m living it.

That’s my new thing…. Let’s see how I’m going to accomplish balancing my life with these activities. See I KNOW, with ABSOLUTE certainty, that if I could find a way to make this my job - music, dancing, photography, cooking/entertaining, exercising, drawing, etc. – then I would be the happiest person in the world. That’s why I’m pushing myself for a career in therapy… because I can practice whole wellness Mind (therapy), Body (Dancing/Art/Cooking), and Spirit (Exercise/Music). I plan on opening my own business that will have these things available to my clients and me :)

So my current state of mind – overwhelmed but hopeful! I can’t wait until I have some time to go out and take photos of the fall leaves – they make me so happy!!!